having a good day

so yeah i got some marks back from two of my classes today! i got an A+ on a major group assignment and got an A on my psychology midterm... but what was really really uplifting was that i totally aced the essay portion! he gave me A+ for both of my answers!!! now why can't i get that kinda mark on my marketing exams??? so yeah i felt really good... i haven't felt that good about school in a long time cuz i usually don't feel like i earn the grades i get or wish i did more to prepare for the test... but this time it just felt soooo great!!! i was reminded of when i took geography in highschool and used to always put effort into it and get the best mark each time... that rush!!! ahhh i missed it so much! so it's nice to get a little taste of it again... my philosophy midterm mark is coming out this friday so i hope for more good news. i kinda feel rejuvinated about school right now, which is perfect timing because i've got these essays to do now... i hope that i can ride this wave of motivation all the way till the end of this term! fingers crossed!

i also felt really uplifted today in fellowship. alex was leading this portion of the night that really got to me. he was showing pictures of space... and we were all reminded of the awesomeness of God! his majesty, his power, his glory, his greatness... he created the heavens and earth so to think that our galaxy is but one of an infinite number of galaxies... stars... nebulas... planets... thinking about the vastness of it all!!! and then the last slide was a scene from the passion of the christ... and i had not seen this movie so i was genuinly humbled and shocked when i saw the image of jesus on the cross... with the open wounds from the wipping.... God is so great and he lowered himself to die the horrific death on the cross to show us his love... i was almost brought to tears and i just felt so loved undeservedly. so we were reminded that jesus was the sacrificial lamb... and that with jesus as our example, we should sacrifice something... now i don't believe that sacrificing something will show God that you love him or anything like that but i did have the urge to recommit to some of the morals and beliefs that i've been letting slack lately. so i've made a new promise to do my best... to try to reclaim the sacredness of my body... in essessence i'm gonna try to respect myself more and try not to give into my sinful lust. i kinda feel that when i forced myself to grow up this year i also lost some of the good characteristics i liked about me... i took it too far so now i'm taking a step back... to a ground that i my conscience is more comfortable with.

posted by :: sweet layer :: @ 11:19 PM