temptation everywhere
so last week i was beginning to feel like an independant woman again... it was nice... my ex hadn't called me in a long time and my curious friend in ottawa and i were cool cuz we agreed to be just friends. i had finally spent a day not thinking about relationships and boys and the night before had made a promise to be a good christian girl... just say no to the temptation of lust!!! and then what happens??? it's like the devil suddenly says "well lets see just how strong this new promise is..." that week my i have a long chatt with my curious friend and it's almost like he wants me to say that friendship isn't good enough for me and that i insist on a realtionship... and then my ex calls and we have a long talk were i find out that he still loves me and isn't over me (amoung other things)... and then my curious friend from ottawa call today and says he's coming down next weekend to spend time with me to see if there is something between us or was the first time we met just a fluke. now it seems that the boys i like are liking me back and as awesome as that is i dunno if any of it will work out. i don't want to hurt anyone... including me. i dunno how to turn off my feelings for my ex even though all of me wants to move on from him... see i'm just the kinda girl that can't turn her back on someone that has only been good to me.
posted by :: sweet layer :: @ 2:33 AM
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hey char char!!!!!!!!!!
this is the girl that sat in front of u (almost) at thu's dinner! =D
Char, i dont know what to say. I mean, are the boys Christian? Is that important to you if they are or not? I think you need time to think things over. Don't rush into anything that your not sure of. Please pray about it =)
LOL, prayer. That's an interesting concept. Have you ever heard of the self-fulfilling prophecy? As Qui-Gon Jinn would say, be mindful of your thoughts. Ha!
Anyways, I should do something... *meh*
well maggie,
the guys aren't christian. One grew up with a christian background and the other is catholic. at this point in my life, whether or not they are christian is not tremendously significant... it matters more to me that they are good people. i'm not looking for someone to spend the rest of my life with... i'm looking for someone to spend the present with... you know what i mean? why should i exclude good people who genuinly care for me from that part of my life based on religion? when my mom married my dad, he wasn't christian but he is now... i'm not suggesting that i want to convert every guy i have a realtionship with but i think not considering someone i that way just because they aren't christian is like judging a book by it's cover. ya never who you'll like.
Hey Char,
I understand what you mean. Have you made a decision yet? =)
well i think the decision was made for me. my ex and i aren't talking as much as ottawa guy and i have been so... i'm gonna invest my feelings into the ottawa guy... i think i was gonna do that all along because i wanna move on from my ex... and it's probably the better decision for right now... things with the ottawa guy may not work out but at least i won't regret not trying it out with him.
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